Mom Fail

   Well I bet from the title of this post you have deduced that I will be talking about how I have failed as a mom. You are correct. And I am so overwhelmed with today that I cannot come up with a clever title. But that is what describes my day. Total MOM FAIL. 
   The last couple days I have been terribly irritable. I really dont have any idea what is going on with me. Things have been going pretty well lately. I have been really good about doing special things with the kids and keeping up with my house. BUT I must have given too much out and did so well by my kids that now I am totally overdrawn. And unlike my bank that covers me when I am overdrawn I have no safety net so my balance keeps getting deeper and deeper in the red. 
  I know that I wont be a perfect mom Ive let that idea go a long time ago. But I have to remember that I will have bad days and will need to give myself some grace. It just felt like today I literally was running around just putting out fires all day long. 

                  Jumping up to keep the baby off the table banging on the tv and then turning around to him almost dumping my coffee. 
                  Watching as my daughter hauls off and smacks her little brother with some toy. And then as I am consoling him she says "I dont know why hes crying he just started crying." 
      
   The list really goes on and on and on and on....I know this is my job as a stay at home mom. 24/7 with my kiddos doing all the fun and not so fun tasks. And please dont get me wrong I love my kids more than anything and I love being a mom. Today I just need a break and to put some gas back in the tank so I can face another day. I just feel so far gone that I dont know any other way to get back than to vent about it and move on.
   So thats what I am doing. Now its bedtime...woo hoo! And I will do some amazing mommy things as I get my kiddos ready for bed and send them off to dreamland. Then I will take advantage of some much needed alone time by working on some knitting and crochet orders while binge watching my latest love Grey's Anatomy. 
   I am more than willing to sacrifice some sleep for some alone time. I will just take an extra cup of iced coffee tomorrow. I will even treat myself to a Starbucks while Im out buying diapers tomorrow. 
  

Thanks for reading. I wouldnt be able to make it some days, today mainly, without you all out there. 

~Heather

Just what the doctor ordered.

Tonight I got to have a night out and a little refresher night. It was so nice to get out. I went with a girlfriend to see My Big Fat Greek Wedding 2.

My night started off with the kids not wanting me to leave. It was nice to see that the kids really appreciate it when I am there and didn't want to see me go. The movie was hilarious it was just what the doctor ordered for me and my friend. We needed a lot of laughs and that's what we got. We got to have those deep in your belly rumbling laughs.

Then after the movie I played the crane game. I told my daughter I would bring her a special surprise and every time we go to the movie theater she loves to play this crane game. You put your money in and you play until you win a prize. They're just silly little stuffed animals but for $2 you get fun playing until you win the prize. I had so much fun pretending to be a kid again playing the crane game to win prizes for my kids.

After that I got in my car alone which is very rare for me to not have two kids in the backseat. What was I to do.... blast the radio and sing my little heart out and dance in my seat. I just wanted to remember this feeling getting out, having some laughs and having fun with a girlfriend pretending like I didn't have responsibilities.

I wouldn't change my job as mommy for anything but it is nice to have a little break every once in awhile.

**typed Friday 4/1/16

Just a thought *women's issue content*

So I'm getting undressed for my yearly woman's exam and something hits me. Every time I'm in here for an exam either routine or during pregnancy its the same. Undress completely and then I hide my unmentionables under my shirt and pants.

Why do we do this? Who is going to see them? The doctor? The nurse? They are getting a front row seat to my most private parts and I'm worried about them seeing my panties?

This just struck me as ironic and gave me a chuckle at myslef this morning.  Happy Monday everyone... :)